Dear Blessings,

I was at a waterfall yesterday, breathing in the misty spray and feeling nature just wrap me up in care.  Quite honesty it had been a long few weeks, very stimulating and very un-nature.  Sometimes life and its living can swallow your energy up and turn you into a heap of tire.  It’s not easy and it’s constant in every way.  I find myself with a list of fussy pressure on myself for how to do it, how to be kind doing it, how to be strong and giving doing it, and what to feel that would fall in line with correct or reasonable.  Sometimes it’s not my energy that’s swallowed up, but rather my “me.”   Yesterday at the waterfall, it was as if Jesus reached urgency to me with His outstretched hand and whispered, “Grace.”  It was if He was saying “Hey honey, ‘my Me’ hasn’t been used up!”   I found myself thinking everything around me was beautiful and it had been awhile since I thought “everything around me is beautiful.”  The moss on the rocks, the unruly branches splaying this way and that, the rain washing every leaf off and refilling the power in the waterfall, the view and smell of it all.  This place held saturation of the mind and body breathing in peace, everything beautiful.  How often do we need something more than notice something big.  The “big” is this, we’re not stuck without the beautiful.  We ARE the beautiful.  We’re doing our best being us, we’re loved by a reigning waterfall making Savior, and we’re made of grace and love.  Can we breathe now?  Yes.  I believe Jesus knows exactly how big and barraging this life can be and I believe it’s why He made our bones and brains beautiful out of His grace and within His love.  If you could hear a towering waterfall moving all your stress aside today, it might just say “beautiful ‘you’ is more than enough my child. Don’t do ‘barraging’ you.  Thank you for using your all up, but ‘my all’ is what refills your strength.  Don’t be alone, use ‘my all’ to live.  Take my grace and breathe deep into my love.  You can have as much as you want of ‘my all’.”

Dear Blessings,

Sometimes I don’t understand you or see you.  I often don’t live you beautiful inside or loud enough outside.  Sometimes you come after hard stuff so it makes you harder to see.  Why do you make me look for you?  Why don’t you blaze in commanding my attention when I need you?  Sometimes you scare me, open new doors when I’m comfortable with old doors.  Sometimes you come before I’m ready, sometimes you come after I’ve waited too long and don’t care.  Sometimes you feel from God Himself, like a breathing waterfall moment.  Sometimes you feel from the world and I don’t know if it’s safe joy.  Sometimes I recognize you when you’re here, mostly I don’t have attention to find you on purpose.  Sometimes I wish you could be louder, yet sometimes I know it’s me who should notice softer things.  Sometimes I praise Jesus for you, other times I blame Jesus you’re not bigger and better.  Dear Blessings, sometimes I think more about Dear Burdens.  In fact, I’m quite familiar with Dear Hurt and Dear Attitude too, even Dear Busy and Dear Excuse.

So today, Dear Blessings, thank you.  I’m sorry.  You’re beautiful and loud and here.  Thank you for taking care of me.  Thank you for being in my life and staying around with your grace.  My life has been far more surprising and different than I thought and I’ve tarried far more with Dear Burdens, but when I think of who I am, I’m me because of you.  You’re a big deal and I’m so sorry I’m just now telling you.  For Dear Blessings, you’re really Dear Jesus.  And so, Dear Jesus, may I use the right name for my blessings and call them ALL by your name.  May I call them ALL Jesus.  Waterfall blessings, waterfall Jesus.  Grace.  Love.  Patience with me.  Compassion for me.  Understanding.  Pushing me through weakness.  Accepting me in all my “doing the best I can” or “not able to see the waterfall today’s”  moments.  Living with me now.  Resurrecting me soon.  Beauty.  Thank you Dear Blessings.  Thank you Dear Jesus.  Ramp and amp me up in this moment.  Open my eyes more constant and reset my focus on the joy in you.  Take over my desire for ease and answers, miracles and stress-movers, and show me my life of grace in all circumstances and in all living.

Remind me I’m living a life of Dear Jesus written all over my time here on earth and remind me I have all the “His All” I need to do it!

Love,  Dear Accept.